the previous post was DISTURBING

dots.

yawen!

im like damn lazy to blog. but i got some reallyyyyyy impt i wanna tell everyone!! its regarding my best friend, yawen.

this post is just to thank her for everything that she has done. she has really been nice to me. by letting me stay over at her house. although she treats me as her own personal maid. dots... but nvm. at least i get to do whatever i want there!!

it was her birthday not long ago. i went out to celebrate with her brother and friends. had lots of fun there!! we ate at this restaurant in city sq mall. most importantly i got to spend time with yawen on her special day. do you know how many people are vying for this honour??

but im glad that im her one and only best friend.. cause i only want her all to myself!! these few months with her have made me realise something.. she's irreplacable!! im glad i went to nanhua and we became great friends. even more so that after we graduated for 3 years we're still in contact regularly!!

sometimes i wonder if she means more to me than anything.. dots. bahs dont wanna think about it now. not a good timing!! damn sian cuz i've got no more shows to watch or anything. nvm i think i go find yawen and talk to her on msn! hahas =D

JUST STAY THE HELL AWAY FROM ME

sorry if i'm coming across as some kinda selfish bitch. but i really really HATE this kinda feeling. every time there's an outing, and i'll feel really excited bout it. but the moment i know he's going, it dampens my mood. and i'm no longer looking forward to the whole thing.

if you wanna hate me. then either tell me why and we'll try to solve it. or JUST STAY THE HELL AWAY FROM ME. dont give me that stupid i-am-all-high-and-mighty-i-dont-like-you-but-i-dont-wanna-tell-you-why-but-i-will-still-appear-in-front-of-you kind off stuff.

i hate it that i have to bear with the feeling of not talking to someone if you're talking to them. i hate it that i cannot just walk anywhere but have to watch where you are to avoid you. i hate it that i cannot sit anywhere i want cuz i've gotta see where the hell you're sitting 1st. i hate it that i have to make sure you're not there before i'm heading there. i hate it that i have to feel very yuan wang feeling of knowing someone hates me but i've got no damn idea why!

I HATE IT. I HATE IT. I HATE IT.

most importantly, i also have to feel so goddamn guilty whenever a friend asks me if he could go. in my heart i'm screaming out loud NO WAY IN HELL. totally freakin damn against it. but i'll feel guilty for saying no cuz honestly speakin asking me it's just a form of courtesy. and i dont really have any say in not letting him go. argh. i hate this feeling the most i guess.

at 1st i thought i could just ignore this whenever he's around. but that's total bullshit. how am i going to ignore when there's someone else wearing this huge flashing signboard saying i hate you. and i have to tiptoe my way around him on the verge of feeling guilty for god knows what god damn reason. been trying to express my feelings to my friends. but i guess they dont quite understand.

sometimes i just wanna be that big bitch and start demanding in your face what the hell do you want. but i can guess your reaction, which is just to walk away. and i would have just humiliated myself. i wish you'll just stop appearing in front of me. you're the person who wants to hate. then so be it. just stay the hell away from her. what is wrong with you. why are you always appearing saying you dont mind when you know i'm going to. if you hate me. you should mind the fact that i'm there. and stay the hell away from me.

thought that this should not be affecting me this much. but i guess it's cuz you're part of 410.

bored

was supposed to be a busy busy day today. but tuition got cancelled, char's sick.

so here i am at starbucks blogging. blah.

I'M SOOO GODDAMN BORED!! argh.

lotsa ppl i know are jumping over to tumblr,. some are using both blogger and tumblr. hmm. i tried once. but didnt really like it. i like reading other's tumblr rather than creating my own i guess. hmmm. and i think tumblr's more revealing as compared to the old boring blogger? i mean if you're reallly good with words then, of course blogger is as revealing. but cuz tumblr has that really easy function to reblog other people's post, you can reblog all the post, pictures, quotes etc etc. so this is kinda more revealing in a way. your style of dressing, your fave dramas, your feelings and stuffs la.

just read xiaxue's blog. and i really think olympus EP1 is really cool!! hmm. if i were to get a camara. think that would be it. hahas. =D

watched eclipse with Le Ting and Serene in thursday. hahas. it's not a great movie but was better than what i expected i guess. coincidentally, Le Ting and I wore the same skirt that day! hahas. and both our phones looks somewhat alike! hahas. TWINS! hahas. =D

Had loads of fun shopping with Serene ytd! hahas. sorry i was sooo damn late though!

DRUMMER! hahas. as if. hehs.

Aussie Gap year.. =( hope i wont regret!