oh. and i miss school already!! argh. dont wanna work at all!! =((

met up with park jianquan and raymond in the morning. we went bowling!! omg. really miss bowling alot!! hais. i totally suck now. really. only one out of the 6 games was 100 plus. hais.

went down to kallang to sign some stuff then went to meet serene at bugis after that. took damn long to decide which pair of shoes i want. hehs.

went down to dhoby to meet the 7princesses. hahas. had loads of fun with them! it was a pity le ting couldnt make it though..=( she came up in our conversations quite a few times.

i should have minded my own business. but it's so difficult to control myself. i wanna know so badly. didnt know it still hurts so damn much. i deserve it i guess.

life's a bore!!!! zzz.

zz. super no life now can!!! zzz. it's alarm at 8.30am. wake up at 8.45. mrt station at 930. reach iluma at 10 plus. then work all the way till 7plus or 8plus. dinner with random people then home at 10 plus. then finally sleep at 12. zzz. life's such a bore now!!! zzz.

the only day i'm always looking forward the most to is my off day!!! only 2 more days to it!! waaaaa!! hais. but still have to go kallang again!! zzz. ah wells. really looking forward to movie night out with 7 princesses. hahas! hope its finally another full clique outing!!

all the boys are going off to army soon!! kinda worried if 410 day will continue. i hope it does. really really hope it does. hais.

work! =D

6 been working at ksuites for a week now. i really like the people there. hahas.

there's my captain, alex. he really spoils us. hahas. yuri, my "trainer"(?), says we're all his babies. hahas. we're so spoiled that i dont want to go to work if he's not the captain for that day. luckily tmr both alex and i are off! hahas. shiok! =D hmm. then there's of course emilyn! hahas. she's really destined to be the one who gets bullied. hahas. she has the come-and-bully-me look. =D hahas. SOTONG!!! hahas. and as usual, she's as blur as ever. =D tyuri is my "trainer"! hahas. no la. actually she's the only senior server there. so she's the one who's teaching me everything! hahas. she's really really nice!! =DD and damn understanding too! and then there's tammy and felicia. both of them are only part-timers though. hahas. they only come in on saturdays and sundays. had loads of fun with tammy. hahas. when teasing emilyn. =DD hehs. that's all for the servers. then there's the receptionists. there's limin!! hahas. she had to take up a christian name. so now she's cyndi! hahas. so weird addressing her as cyndi. hahas. hmm. then there's vicky!!! =D she's so bubbly!!! hahas. and she's really nice to talk to! hmmm. hope that she and her boyfriend can work things out soon. then there's the bartenders!! there's xuan and xtrimus (though we call him christmas! hehs) both of them are really nice people too! christmas helped me alot when i wasnt very sure what to do. xuan was really helpful too! man! i want their job! argh. when i came for interview. they wanted a bartender too you know!! bahs. i didnt know!! or i would have applied for that!!! so coooll la!!! can learn how to mix those different drinks. pussyfoot. snowball. singapore sling. bla bla bla. really damn cool! argh...

aiya. in short! all of them, and i really mean ALL of them are really really nice people. they help when needed and are really funny people too! hahas.

hmm. as for my job scope? it's really quite sian... cuz most of the days not much business de. zzz. so most of the time i'm either stoning or chatting with the others. hahas. the morning shifts has all the girls!! hahas. the only guys are christmas and alex. there are more guys in the night shift. lesser girls there. and i heard that there was a sluttish person who's going to go to work there tmr. hahas. caught a glimpse of her when she came for interview. hahas. all the guys were oogling at her. hahas. dots... guys.... -.-

hmmm. overall. i kinda like my job. but i may not wanna stay for 6mths?? maybe 2 or 3 mths only ba. hahas. =D

monday - 1st day of work. went to company party after that. with emilyn alex vicky and xuan. hahas.

tuesday - had dinner with serene melody and leting after work! melody and leting surprised me by coming over to ksuites. hahas. =D serene joined us after i ended work.

wednesday - sally and her boyfriend, julian, came to look for me and emilyn! hahas. had dinner together after work! =D

thursday - had dinner with limin yuri vicky christmas and mickey after work! =D

friday - dear char char came to find me =D met her after work.

saturday - orchard with belbel!

today! went to shop around at iluma with emilyn limin yuri vicky tammy felicia and alex! hahas. felt a little guilty for making him wait for us while we girls were shopping. hahas. =D

oh. and i forgot to mention that everyone at ksuites are nice except one! gosh. max the bull. argh. he pisses me off. he's the chef. and he's one hugeass pervert. argh. if i was around yesterday. i would have rebutted his stupid ass comment. argh argh argh!! irritating bastard!

tomorrow's my off day. luckily sally's accompanying me. =D thanks alot! will go and pay emilyn a visit after going to hq! =D

oh. I did I mention that my pay would be tripled on the 1^st day of cny, and then doubled on the 2^nd?? Shiokness!!! =DD

shopping therapy

went to accompany my mum to mount elizabeth hospital for her operation. luckily it wasnt a major one. so everything ended quite fast.
went shopping at orchard with belinda after that. bought loads of stuff. it kinda helps you know. shopping therapy. i feel slightly better now. though i still have that ache in my heart whenever i rmb the times we were still together. i really want that feeling to go away soon.

It's over...

i feel like some kind of fool now. Cant you have made it clearer? did you have to put me through this kind of turmoil for a week long? It was really unbearable. I kept wondering what we were then. Friends? couple? or what? It was so xin ku. Here, i still really like you, but i had no idea what and how you feel. No indication at all. or maybe i chose to ignore it. Hahs. Maybe i was just delusional and only wanted to see what i wanted to.

Maybe someone should have told me though relationships can be really sweet, it could also hurt like hell when it ends, and i really mean like hell. Especially when one party is still in love with the other. Is there some kind of switch somewhere to turn this feeling off? If there is, please tell me. I need it badly.

Is there actually this thing whereby you have to have the same amt of pain as the amt of happiness you've had? It's all so sweet and happy and all the other good feelings during, but when it ends, it hurts like hell. It's like i have to pay back through feeling like this. i have no idea how to put it to words only that it hurts damn alot. How do people actually stand this kind of feeling? How do they keep going into relationships over and over again? wth. i wonder how long i have to wait for this feeling to go away. Can you please PLEASE stop haunting me? like right now.

I wanted to tell you loads of stuff after i finally knew how it was. But in the end, i guess it wouldnt have mattered to you anyways. you heartless sonofabitch!

Resolutions

hmm. been blog hopping around and noticed many people were posting new year resolutions. so here it is. mine. and i hope i'll keep it. really.

first and foremost... to spend less and save more. zzz. i've always been the kind who would spend every single cent i have. so therefore i have no savings at all. so yeah. i must try to save more!!!

secondly. spend more time with my family and friends. havent been spending alot of time with belinda recently. argh. plus i'm going to have to work soon. that means even lesser time to spend time with family and friends. how i wish i have 2 or 3 days off instead of 1. or even better still, if my mum allowed me to work the night shift. zzzz.

thirdly. become more determined. my determination really sucks. i know i've been saying i wanna lose weight for quite some time le. i must really really start le can. hmm. this is where i shall start training my determination. hahas. =D

cant think of anymore....

some other random stuff...

1. been feeling quite emo these few days. hmmm. i seem to know why. but at the same time i dont. i know. its contradicting. but it's not like i wanna be emo right. argh. i'm kinda irritated by myself. argh.

2. i'm quite reluctant to start work. mainly cuz of the injection that i've gotta go take. argh. and also cuz it means alot less free time. hais.

3. being internet-less sucks. no entertainment at all. but then again. even if i had internet. it may not be entertaining. zzz. i'm bored to the maaaaxxxxxxxxx!

4. hmmm. i wanna go on another overseas trip!! =((

5. i'm dreading CNY! zzz.

taiwan trip~!

=D =D =D

taiwan trip with 410 was really fun. though it was mostly shopping! hahas. the only sightseeing place we went to was 101 i think. hahas.

1st day. 1st jan
belinda, emilyn, sally and weiming came to send me off at the airport. had lunch at the pathetic kopitiam upstairs.
said our goodbyes and met up with 410 again. we had to run to our gate cuz it was closing already. whew!! hahas. such things would only happen when i'm with 410. hahas. hmmm. took jetstar there. it was a 4 hour flight. it was so freakin uncomfortable!! gosh. it was freakin squeezy and hot and DRY!! gosh. slept during the 1st half of the flight. then camwhored and crapped around after that.
landed at about 6plus in the evening. there was a man holding up a paper stating "BINGZHENG". hahas. turned out he was the middleman. took a coach to the hotel. LILAI hotel was where we were going to stay for the rest of the 5 days. it was located at ximen. hahas. went to walk around ximen. ate and shop abit. then headed back to the hotel at 11 plus i think.

2nd day. 2nd jan
went to taipei 101. paid around 20SGD to go up there and slack. dots. i was only willing to spend 20 dollars to go up cuz it would be stupid if i went to taipei and not 101. the view wasnt great cuz it was freakin foggy. had to make do with some audio-video, cellphone-looking guide.
after that, went to jiu fen pu. bought shitloads of things there! i swear that is one of the best shopping place in taipei. it has gotta be! gosh. everything's so cheap there! gosh. how i wish i went during the summer time. bet i could get shitloads of clothes. after that, it was back to ximen again. went back to the hotel and went out to ximending to shop. this time round only with wengmaan shihui junwei and chongyee.

3rd day. 3rd jan
had to wake up really early. but luckily still managed to meet on time. took the coach down to jiu fen i think. really nice scenery there. bought some yam mochi and postcards there.
after that, went to some fish port. gosh. didnt really like the place. i mean. it was quite facinating. it was really a very huge seafood market. and you can see all sorts of live sea creatures there. but the seafood we had for lunch was terrible!! gosh. didnt eat much. looks and tastes quite disgusting. eww.
passed by the sea, saw really nice waves. hahas. we took jump shots and some other retarded pose. hahahs.
went to ji long after that. i was nearly lost! felt quite scared. but manage to find them not long after that. hmm. there wasnt much to shop there.
went back to to taipei and headed to shih lin. hmmm. the food there was quite a disappointment. 1st, we didnt manage to find oyster mee sua. then the oa jian there was not nice. chou dou fu wasnt as smelly as i thought it would, plus it tastes exactly like normal tofu. dots. i liked the guan chai ban though. and the ji pai there was FREAKIN HUGE!! omgomgomg! so big!! hahas. it's not only cheaper than the ones in singapore, its i think 3 times bigger than the one in singapore. !!! right! hahas. regretted not taking photo of it. bought loads of bags and it was FREAKIN CHEAP too!! hahas. =D totally love my new bags. love it so much that i used it the next day. hehs.

4th day. 4th jan
had to meet quite late but we only woke up 10 min before the meeting time. we were all rushing like siao. hahas. went to xin bei tou to pao wen quan. hahas. the girls got a room to ourselves!! hahas. didnt enjoy it as much as i thought i would. firstly, the water wasnt hot enough. secondly, it was very suffocating. if you know what i mean. hmmm. but it was alot cheaper than i thought.
went to dan shui after that. shopped and ate alot there. hahas. it was foggy again so didnt get to see alot of nice scenary.
went to some night market but wengmaan shuhui and i didnt like it. luckily we only spent 2 hours there. went back to ximending and got masks for both face and eyes. bought 70 over dollars worth of it i think. hahas. =DD
had a bimbo session with not only the girls but also yanglin and ekneng. hahas. we put on masks and soaked our feets.

5th day. 5th jan
today was really quite free and easy. went to eat din tai fung for brunch. the fried rice wasnt as nice as i thought it would be. but the xiaolongbao and xhuijiao was freakin nice!! hahas. =DD
went to newyorknewyork after that. it was a shopping mall. so didnt get to shop much cuz it was too ex. went to some underground mall afterthat. got a pair of shoes with my last remaining 200 dpllars (10sgd). hahas. cheap right!?!?! hahas. but there wasnt much to shop actually so we headed back to ximen and shopped there again. =D
regrouped at 430. and headed to the airport. had burger king.
slept through the 1st half of the flight again (everybody else was doing the same) and then bridged the 2nd half of it. =DD


some random stuff bout the trip..
-the guys created some codes to identify chio girls. hahas. cm, lina, bottom, top, mid, back, ks, nth to report, illusion aka illu illu illu!! hahas. was really funny!! hahas.
-had smaking zhong ji mi ma is fun! =DD
-i'll miss huan1 ying3 guang~1 lin~1 and xie4 xie4 guang~1 lin~1
-it is damn damn polluted there. omgomgomg


have to go for injection tomorrow and i'm freakin not looking forward to it!!! argh!